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New Year’s Eve divination from my ancestors

Рождественские гадания в Челябинской области
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My divination techniques and tools are different and new these days in accordance with my nature based spiritual path, however, there is always energy around for me around New Year’s Eve and always will be. It is, one might say, in my blood and memories. Happy memories.

New Year’s Eve for Russians is probably the biggest and the most important celebration of the whole year. I certainly remember waiting for it to come as a child and a young adult, as there was magic, festive spirit of new beginnings and just that turning of the clock event, it all enchanted me and everyone around me. Wonderful times with lots of crunchy sparkling snow and bright frosty days. I was born in Siberia. I will never forget winters there. When I was born it was – 40C, the coldest I ever experienced since. I do miss snow and cold very much around winter time here and memories come back alive of our New Year’s eves. One, in particular, when we got snowed under in our country house and in the morning put our skis on to go to the woods, the only way we could get out. I never in my life experienced such a dark night with such glorious moon and countless stars in thick clusters and of huge size. Pure magic. I will always remember that night sky and us sitting by the fire place inside our small wooden house/cabin. Nothing else existed in the world in that moment.

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There are many traditions and customs that go with the New Year’s Eve celebrations in Russia like drinking champagne, certain dishes eaten during the festive meal (a LOT of food) and, of course, fortune telling. In ancient times in Christ worshipping Orthodox tradition in villages young and old alike men and women would gather around to perform what I would now call ‘magic’, however, the aim would always be directed towards the future and finding out things about your future husband, future success and happiness and how to get rid of unwanted people, energies, etc. Relationships seemed to be at the centre of questioning at that time and still are, I would say.

This New Year’s Eve I did my own magic with a releasing SPELL and at midnight I might take out my grandmother’s old deck of playing cards, which she used for divination, and do some fortune telling myself. It is called Cartomancy when a deck of playing cards used for fortune telling. You can find meanings of the cards by clicking on the link above, should you wish to know more, although, I would suspect and my grandmother and I did create some of our own meanings and interpretations with years of practice, as any Tarot card reader would do these days. Intuition is at the heart of magic and psychic workings, therefore can go outside prescribed parameters and certain order, should you wish to practice intuitively.

Happy New Year, my wonderful readers!

Let the Goddess bless you with her gifts and protection for 2016

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Cat Familiars – A story of Dubh (pronounced Dove) means ‘Black’ in Gaelic Irish

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I would like to share the story of my familiar cat – Lydia. She came into my life about a year ago and the learning I received from her has been rich and wonderful. She has been one of the catalysts in my spiritual development and continual integration of shadow sides of my psyche. She is now about 1.5 years old, so quite young, but so knowing, confident, wise and wild, truly in touch with her natural instincts and deeply knowing of her own abilities and purpose. Such a profound teacher and companion.

For two or three months coming up to the end of 2013 I experienced an extreme yearning for a black cat. The feeling was so intense and all-consuming that I often found myself unable to function or concentrate on daily activities. I was completely overcome by the pulling feeling in my solar plexus, a similar feeling to when you miss someone desperately after, perhaps, losing them. The feeling had a sense of loss and grief to it too. No matter how hard I tried to ignore or eliminate the feeling it came back even stronger. I didn’t know what to do, but I did know I must have that cat. By the time the year was ending I could not imagine not having that cat in my life, but I didn’t know which direction to turn. I was told by many that I must wait for the animal, what seemed like a familiar to turn up on my door step or come to me in other ways. The waiting was extremely hard and once sitting with a client in a garden studio a black cat appeared at the door looking at me for a few seconds through the glass before disappearing. My heart jumped and I remember running out of the house as soon as my work with a client was finished. I was very aware of the desperate feeling to see the cat again, yet it was gone. I also felt that it meant what I am waiting for and looking for is near. It filled me with great excitement, anxiety and even more yearning in my soul.

One of my intuitive friends after I contacted her expressing my feelings about the cat suggested I meditate on the image of the cat I wish to manifest and also consult with my spirit guide to see if they might know if something is coming up for me. I already had a name, which came to me not long before seeing the cat at the studio and I knew exactly what it looked like. I also had a picture of the cat, which I then took to meditate on. Incredible thing happened when I actually looked at the picture, really closely looked at it. What I previously failed to notice was the fact that the cat was in a cage. It was trapped. I had a moment where my heart dropped into my solar plexus as if my power was taken away from me. That’s how the cat felt and that was the reason she could not show up for me. I knew then I had to find and get her out of the cage. I felt things shifting within me, as my focus became clear with the realisation of a needed action.

The following day I sat down looking at rescue cats online, as I had done for months yet not finding any cats either resembling my cat or anything at all. That night straight away the cat picture came up. After months of searching and looking I never came across her before even though I had been on the site many times and I knew at that moment that it was her. Furthermore, she happened to be fostered just down the road from where I lived.

My son, who had been unwell that week suddenly felt better, I distinctly remember him jumping off the sofa when I said I just saw my cat. He became very excited about that particular cat. My son and I are ‘one’ in terms of feeling each other out and being ‘soul close’. That was a sign to me also. Then, my husband, who resisted me having another cat (long story) and always said ‘no’ suddenly went – ‘sure, you can have her, she will keep you company when I am away’ in a very calm manner. I was shocked he said that considering he didn’t want to hear at all about it even the day before. My son was also surprised.

I contacted them and a very kind woman said that the cat came from Ireland and she had a Gaelic name Dubh, which means ‘black’. When I heard that I simply burst into tears. I cried and cried. I have a very close soul connection with Ireland for as long as I remember. It is all about colour green, elves, unicorns, nature, rich mythology and ancient traditions of Celtic paganism, Druids, etc. Remember that client I was sitting with in a therapy studio when a cat came up to the door? Well, the lady was Irish and I liked her very much. We had a real soul connection. There is obviously something in that heritage, which is part of me and I resonate with plus I thought how unusual for the cat to travel quite far to be adopted. I will need to do more research now on Celtic paganism, as this situation is a clear sign that’s where I need to look for some of my roots.

After speaking to a lady on the phone I suddenly remembered my meditation on a cat’s picture where my God and Goddess (my spirit guides), who I love and trust, had the cat already with them, she was already there, BUT there was a clear indication that she was in pain and had gone through some difficulties and needed to rest and heal before I could have her. She was asleep under protection and care of my God and Goddess. Those two are very sweet, like a married couple, very kind. There was Fire there also, which is the energy of transformation and transition. There was also a request from my God and Goddess to send the cat lots of radiance and love. Well, a nice lady told me that the cat just had her operation, which would explain that she was in pain and recovering. She was with my spirit guides resting. How much can change in a couple of days. My cards also pointed towards a union and harmony at the time.

Meeting the cat was nerve wrecking and exciting. I was aware of not breathing. She was very shy, but her eyes said to me ‘take me, learn from me, I am ready to come with you’. My son and I drove off with Lydia.

Her name is Lydia Dubh (black Lydia). The name Lydia came to me a long time ago either in a dream or a meditation and I just love her Gaelic name, which is pronounced as Dove. Doves also have strong associations for me, although it is on the opposite scale of white and being a bird, it makes it even more interesting about this duality, which I have been experiencing. I have been having doves in my visualisation for a long time. Dove to me means harmony and healing and it is very feminine symbol, which would make sense why Dubh would come back to me, as I have been searching for my lost and wounded feminine, so with her in my arms I once again can start feeling that Divine force of sweet, warm and strong feminine energy.

The feelings that she awoke in me struck me like thunder and lightning. She was wild and we had such a power struggle between us with Lydia winning every time. Lots of emotions in my up and down. It was as if a rug was taken from underneath my feet with the intensity of her presence in the house. I was not prepared for it, but it was the whole point to hit me with all the lessons that I asked for and which would transform my life very quickly and very profoundly. Lessons that she taught me involved intense inner child work, learning to let go, reclaiming my feminine sacred power, releasing negative emotions and owning them, chakra rebalancing, shadow integration. It was intense. Lydia felt human to me from the start and it was a gradual process before we became one in the experience of each other. My love and appreciation for her is deep and sacred.

What is your story with your familiar? Remember sometimes we have to go on a journey and take action towards finding something we need and desire rather than waiting for things to happen. Be aware how you feel and what your intuition is telling you to do. There are ways of obtaining and receiving lessons, which are unique to an individual.

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Winter Solstice Walk

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As I walk through nature on the eve of Winter Solstice I feel the pulling and pushing, defending and releasing. There’s a real fight going on between life and death, darkness and light. All is not calm, all is not settled in the howling wind and crows frantic in the air circling the Earth. Energies are high, loud and penetrating. On the search for an object to represent New, represent light and virgin to set intentions for new beginnings.

I sit in the open space being pushed from side to side by the wind as if rocking me to feel everything around me and I do. I sit for a while and take in the turbulence of emotion outside and inside of me. I stand up and walk towards a horse standing by the fence, it gently looks at me and continues to chew on grass with no concern or worry. I begin to feel a certain release of tension and look down. Here it is, right in front of me, the object I have been looking for to use in the New Moon ritual. A stone, which energy is gently rising towards my awareness. I pick it up and put it in my pocket. It feels just right where it is. I breathe a sigh of relief and smile.

Gentle chattering of branches and distant bird songs, a little twit here and there amidst the strong wind. It feels cosy though. I am smiling, my pace is slower and something is released in me as I continue on the path of today.

I feel I am not alone, there are energies surrounding me, beings peeking from behind trees and I feel amused and smiling towards the sky. Collecting attire for my Yule log I come across nature jewels and with thanks I carry it safely with me.

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Forest spreads its welcoming arms open in front of me and I hear noises of joy and peace. The wind is now behind me with its threatening howls. Squirrels acrobatically scatter through the trees, as if playing hide and seek. They sit and stare before shooting off again into the labyrinth of branches.

I feel the urge to climb a beautiful giant of tree in front of me. It is enticingly open and vibrates warmth towards me. I must touch it. It vibrates under my fingers and feels like home.
I often shapeshift with trees, who are my safest haven. I feel the wind, the earth, the rain and heat – whole elemental experience from the position of a tree. My experience is intoxicatingly knowing and in perfect alignment.

I turn off the path with renewed curiosity and the cooing of wild life invites me to explore further. There’s a knocking sound coming from my left, I am aware I am about to receive something. Ahh, there it is, It is a clearing towards light and air changes into clean, sudden wisps of beautiful flow. Softness replaces hardness, fierceness gives way to gentleness.

I find myself rooted on the spot, there is more for me here, patience. The wind drops completely and I fall into a state of semi-sleepiness with
only sounds of nature surrounding my senses. The Earth is moist, my heart softens even further. I touch the ground and it is a mixture of old and new, ripe and decayed, soft and hard – all polarities making whole in the Earth which is ALL…

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The word ‘Love’ comes into my awareness and what’s this? A bit of Sun?The sky is opening up with tender light, slowly… It smells like wet moss and soil with a hint of flowery scent and woody deliciousness. It is familiar and it triggers childhood memories of picking mushrooms in late autumn, moistness of the ground.

The trees above are waving good bye to me as I walk out of the clearing and towards some houses ahead. I smile and bow.

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Something is stuck in my throat, I begin to cough, something is wanting to come out – unsaid emotional pain, anger, sadness, something unexpressed wanting to be released
– a lesson from the Earth I hear. ‘Sit with it, release it free and breathe easy through the belly of the solar plexus’. I hear it, I breathe in deeply and feeling somewhat dizzy I sense all that is suppressed. In the woods I breathe
easy, outside I choke – how telling…

Next I am entering the forest again and I soon find myself feeling stronger, walking taller, with my voice waiting to erupt from my chest like a lion’s roar. I feel that Fire and follow its call into a big scream, a scream for life, a scream for love and all things just and patient. My body tingles
with the glow of gold.

I might be breathless, but I am strong
I might be fierce but I belong with all my softness and tender touch to
thee, the Earth, the universal light.

I can feel a light being behind me flowing with the wind and blessing my steps as I leave my sacred forest with renewed strength and vitality. I feel alive! Welcome light, welcome life!

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Self-love is NOT bad

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We hear about self-love more and more these days in a sense that one must give oneself love in order to be able to give out into the world. There is a strong dissonance of energy between giving and receiving in the world generally. Often we are good at giving, but terrible at receiving. Sounds familiar? We have bought into the idea of unquestionable self-sacrifice and understand receiving as bad, selfish, not allowed and even shameful. What we do is simply abandon ourselves each and every time, tricking ourselves into believing we are doing something right. We abandon our own internal system of guidance, which, if only we listened, would move us towards our highest self and our soul’s purpose. We listen to one internal voice, which stems from years of internalised belief that we are bad if we don’t give out fully and we are not good enough if we allow ourselves to receive. By listening to one voice, we ignore another, which is our intuitive guidance of the soul carrying messages of love and compassion. We rationalise why something makes us feel good, something that comes from inside, no, we don’t have time to stop and listen, we must go on with doing and giving and often making ourselves invisible and ill in the process.
This cruel conditioning seems to be ruling so much of our existence and robbing us of health, validation, recognition and sanity. Why is that? We are all part of one whole, one source of the Divine energy, which is unconditional love, yes, that’s right, YOU are divine and YOU are love, so fill your cup up full and stop emptying it so readily under the illusion that you must do that… Learn to receive in equal measures to giving and rock that sacred Feminine and Masculine like we were meant to. It seems to be the hardest task for almost all to re-learn self-love, to understand that we can not separate from ‘we are here’ and ‘they are there’. It is all one and we are built from the same material.
On the other side of the dilemma is that our soul’s purpose are abandoned through us abandoning our voice of love, our voice of intuition, we become unwell physically, emotionally, spiritually, because we often look for love, acknowledgement and validation in the wrong places. We look outwards and not inwards, because looking inwards is something we are yet to re-learn, something we are to get acquainted with all over again, something we knew well when we were born, but through human experience of conditioning we forgot. When in times of despair our soul’s song is not heard, we feel alone and we feel we might as well not exist.
Divine knows you, Divine is a part of you, and building a relationship with the Divine and having a conscious link with your intuitive guidance system are a sure road back to yourself, to the natural state of being as one with it all. Breaking away from chains of our conditioning is tough and in breaking away we break down, but it is in breaking down we find a way towards the light.